The presence of Maya Angelou

Remembering the class of a lifetime

Author photo and quotation on the back of Angelou’s book Rainbow in the Cloud

Author photo and quotation on the back of Angelou’s book Rainbow in the Cloud

When Maya Angelou died in 2014, I wrote about the heady experience of being a student in her college seminar long, long ago; I came across that essay recently and wanted to share it here.

Spring 2014

After I heard the news about Maya Angelou’s death last week, I wanted so much to see what, if anything, I had had the good sense to put on paper about the experience of being in her class at Wake Forest University.

I was a committed keeper of journals back then, but after 27 years, the chances of putting my hands on the one from that exact timeframe seemed slim. But I was determined to try, and the universe served up what felt like a small miracle. The very first notebook I pulled out of a wooden chest in the back of my closet contained this single paragraph:

Tuesday night, April 7, 1987

I began a course with Maya Angelou yesterday. She is captivating, electric, compelling ... and – at first – terrifying. It was the most stimulating, exhausting two and a half hours I have spent since I can remember.

My memories of college classes are more in the “broad brush” category these days, and I’m sad to say that I don’t recall much about the specific things we talked about in that spring seminar, which I took at the end of my senior year.

But what I do have a vivid memory of is the experience of Maya Angelou.

That bowled-over paragraph in my journal sums up the powerful impression she made on me -- an impression that has not faded over the past 27 years.

From the first moment of the first day of class, I knew this was going to be like no class I had ever taken.

She set a tone that was a little terrifying for college kids accustomed to informality; she expected things that we were not accustomed to – in college or in life in general, I think.

She announced that we were going to learn each other’s names so that we would be able to go around the room and greet each of our fellow students by name at the beginning of class – and we wouldn’t be calling each other by our first names, as I’m sure we would have expected. We would greet each other formally – Ms. Smith, Mr. Jones, etc.

She also made it clear that anyone who wasn’t able to be on time may as well just stay away that day.

I was raised to be polite, and I had always been a respectful kid, but the expectations she laid out that first day were striking. I’m not sure I could have put it into words back then, but I definitely understood that for Maya Angelou, those ground rules were not about going through the motions or being old-fashioned; they were about dignity and respect. In giving people your attention – learning their names, greeting everyone individually – and respecting their time, you communicate your regard for them.

(I can’t recall whether we talked specifically about the importance of these kinds of gestures of respect and dignity in the context of the history of slavery, but even if we didn’t, I certainly made the connection.)

At first I was petrified that I wouldn’t be able to remember my classmates’ names; I wanted very much to rise to her expectations of us.

I believe she had this effect on everyone she encountered; she was the sort of person who could walk into a room and make everyone sit up straight. Her energy couldn’t help but kick your senses into high alert; you wanted to harness even a little of it for yourself.

An unforgettable dinner party

Beyond my memory of Maya Angelou as a force of nature, I will never forget the way we ended our seminar: She invited all of us to dinner at her home, which stands as the most exciting invitation ever extended to me.

As anyone who admires Maya Angelou would understand, that evening was a highlight of my writing, reading, studying, thinking life. Unfortunately, I don’t remember the kind of minute details that you’d like to recall about an experience like that, and it’s not in my journal, either; I’m guessing I was pouring my eve-of-graduation excitement and fear into those pages during those last few weeks of college.

But again, I still have vivid broad-strokes memories.

I remember her warmth and hospitality – her genuine delight at having us in her home.

I remember wonderful food, though I can’t tell you what she made for us.

I remember sitting around in her living room/family room after dinner doing something I never dreamed I would do, something I still have a hard time wrapping my head around: We read poems that we had written. Out loud. To MAYA ANGELOU. In her living room.

It was thrilling and – to borrow an adjective from my journal entry – terrifying.

Though I would love to see what on earth I wrote and read to Maya Angelou that evening, awful as it may have been, I have no idea where that poem is.

But I do have a lasting memory of a lovely evening with a lovely woman who began our time together by teaching us how to show respect and regard for a room full of strangers and ended it by inviting us to step outside our comfort zone with a room full of fellow travelers.

When I was very young, the teacher would call the roll in class, and we would each pipe up, “Present.”

Here – I’m here, we meant.

With Maya Angelou, presence meant more than checking a box.

It was, to quote my younger self, something electric.

I can’t think of anyone I’ve ever encountered who was more fully present in life than Maya Angelou, and that was a powerful thing to behold for a 22-year-old overflowing with big dreams and heading out into the real world.

Thank you for that send-off, Phenomenal Woman.

Magazine-making joy

I'm happy to be adding magazine editing/writing back into my work mix.

I was introduced to the Cabinet Makers Association through my work with a longtime client, Dark Horse Woodworks, and the CMA invited me to take over managing editor/writing duties for its quarterly magazine, PROfiles.

Before and after 

Before and after

 

 

I grew up appreciating wood-working, building and craftsmanship. Slowly but surely, my dad built an ambitious addition to our house in his spare time at night and on the weekends, and he built furniture, too. Given that my longtime client (and high school classmate), my next-door neighbor and my nephew are professionals in the wood-working field in one way or another (furniture designers/builders or cabinetmakers), I find it especially interesting to write about and for this trade group.

To put the proverbial icing on the cake, I found that a former graphic designer I worked with for many years in a corporate in-house design group also has her own business now, and she agreed to take on the redesign and layout work for the magazine. 

The first “new” PROfiles issue came out this summer just ahead of a major CMA member event at a big industry trade show, and the word from my CMA clients is that “everyone loved it.”

In short, the new version has more content – including a news roundup and more features – and a cleaner design.

The cover story features James Fox, who says he spent a lot of time and money on higher education before figuring out that cabinet-making was the one thing that he never lost interest in; though we're programmed to think that bigger is better, Fox has made a point of staying small. He has remained a solo practitioner because it allows him the flexibility to shut down and travel regularly; this summer, he spent six weeks in Europe. 

Writing about the craftsmanship and entrepreneurial success of these cabinetmakers is truly a pleasure.  

Print allure

I wrote and edited for magazines for about 14 years, and that work was among the most creative and satisfying of my career. 

For the most part, the magazines I worked on were not the glossy ones most of us have on our coffee tables; they were wonkier publications put out by great nonprofit organizations. They delved into topics such as consumer advocacy and sustainable environmental practices, and one focused on political, economic and social changes in post-Soviet-bloc countries (this job brought me the opportunity to live in Prague). 

What I learned from those experiences is that when you are working as a magazine editor, you have to put aside your own ideas of what an ideal magazine looks like; for me, it was probably LIFE magazine, which I loved from childhood on, in large part because of my love of great photojournalism. A magazine has to speak to its readers, and you have to be careful to put your personal inclinations aside and shape it for your audience. My hope for the CMA's PROfiles magazine is that members with shops of all sizes and types will enjoy what they see and find something useful and/or inspirational in each issue.

I loved each and every one of the magazines I worked on, and leafing through the new CMA issue reminded me of the joy of creating a tangible, printed piece of work. The Internet and all of its shiny, beckoning links is a wild and wondrous and dangerous place for someone like me, who can get drawn down the rabbit hole quickly. 

There’s an old-fashioned allure to a single, finite issue of a magazine.

Have any writing/storytelling work you’d like to delegate? I’d love to collaborate.

Read the story of my particularly fun, logistically challenging job as managing editor of the official magazine about the making of The Lord of the Rings movies. (It involved many time zones and at least one post-midnight conversation with a well-known actor.)

Favorite things: go to your happy place with this sound mix app

Move your sound icons around to make them more or less prominent in your mix. 

Move your sound icons around to make them more or less prominent in your mix. 

Distracted at work? Stressed? Sleepless? Maybe you should try firing up the TaoMix app and going to your customized happy place. Sitting by a crackling fire in the woods with wind blowing through the trees? Campfire on the beach with the sound of ocean waves? Sitting in a coffee shop with a crackling fire and the sound of rain on the roof? 

For years, I used the free version of the app TaoMix (from inookta studio inc.) to give me a relaxing backdrop of ocean breezes, rain or other nature sounds. In the free version, you only have access to some of the sounds in the app’s library, and for a long time, I was satisfied with those and just ignored the other options listed.

But in trying to get into a better sleep groove, I began looking at all the sounds in the library and decided it was time to get the paid version. 

Creating your own sound prescription

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With the full library to play with, I figured out for the first time the true beauty of the app – the ability to layer sounds to create an atmosphere that lulls you, stimulates you, comforts you, or simply takes you to a favorite place when you can’t go there yourself. 

I’m just sorry I didn’t commit to the paid version earlier. 

I work from a home office, and sometimes the solitude and/or the neighborhood sounds (currently: a house being built across the street) make me wish I could snap my fingers and be somewhere else. Sound mixes help, whether they conjure up nature or other environments that are more appealing than the buzzing, growling and clanking of construction equipment. (TaoMix includes non-nature ambient options, too, such as the sound of a train, a fan blowing or a coffee shop's murmurs and clinking.) 

A few examples of the mixes I’ve created so far and the sounds that go into them: 

  • A hike in the woods: Walk in the forest (footsteps on leaves) + wind in trees + birds in the forest
  • Three Pines bistro from author Louise Penny’s Inspector Gamache novels on a cold rainy day (friends finally convinced me to start reading this mystery series set in an idyllic Canadian village, and this mix made me think of the inviting bistro where many scenes in the book take place): Busy coffee shop + fireplace + medium rain + distant thunder
  • Beach campfire: Fire camp + medium waves + sea breeze 
  • Campfire in the woods with storm coming: Fire camp + wind in trees + distant thunder
  • Lying in bed in an old oceanfront beach cottage on a stormy night: Sea breeze + light rain on a roof + medium thunder + agitated ocean

The app's creators also paid great attention to detail, giving you the ability to choose how prominent or subtle each sound in your mix should be. If you move a sound icon closer to the circle in the center of your phone screen (as pictured in the screen shot above), it will be amplified; far from the circle, it will be far more muted. 

This feature is the icing on the cake for me; there are certain sounds that I like but can easily dominate a mix or be too distracting from the overall effect if they're too loud. 

Work hack or personal hack

If sounds are powerful for you, I’ve found that there are plenty of situations where the app works well. 

As mentioned, I use it during the work day in my home office when I need (good) sounds in the background but am not in the mood to listen to music. Had I thought about it at the time, it would have been an ideal antidote to the distraction and oddness of working in an “open office” environment a couple of years ago. For many reasons, the open office trend has never appealed to me, and one of the drawbacks was the fact that I could no longer create a workspace with any personal stamp on it (in a true open office scenario, your belongings stay in a drawer, and you have to find your seat every day). 

I think the TaoMix app would have made open office work easier on two fronts: Blocking out distraction, of course, and possibly helping me feel – on a subconscious level anyway – that I could create a space of my own each day, even if it was a virtual space.

And on a personal level, it’s been a great addition to my night-time routine; when winding down or falling asleep, I usually go for a mix of rain, wind, ocean waves and the like (with the occasional frog or cricket sounds thrown in). 

Want to try it? 

TaoMix is available in the iTunes app store and for Android. When I was searching for these links, I discovered that a new version, TaoMix 2, has been released, so you may want to check out that version, too.

Confetti, failure, powerful moments

Better late than never: 7 things that stuck with me after the 2016 Hopscotch Design Festival

I hemmed and hawed about whether to go to September’s Hopscotch Design Festival in Raleigh. (I’m not a designer, after all.)

I was looking to be jostled out of a rut, get some inspiration and meet creative people. (And in particular, I wanted to meet some local creative people, as all of my current clients live in other states.)

Finally, just a few days before the festival, I decided that Hopscotch was a good bet to deliver those things, even for a writer, and I signed up.

I was right.

Here are some of the takeaways–big, small, and in some cases, very personal–that I’m still thinking about two-plus months later.

Caveat: There were many intriguing presentations and compelling talks that I don’t include here. This isn’t intended to be a ‘best of’ list — just think of it as a ‘memorable for me’ list. (And apologies for the not-so-crisp iPhone photos.)

1. I need a drawer filled with confetti.

Tina Roth Eisenberg, graphic designer, creative entrepreneur, and founder of CreativeMornings and Tattly, told of the morale- and joy-boosting drawer of confetti that is always at the ready in her work space.

 

(I’m not even remotely cleaning-obsessed, but I have to admit to wondering what kind of powerful vacuum cleaner they keep around the office.)

Given that I keep some of our family Legos around to build with when I can’t stand to write another word, Eisenberg felt like a kindred spirit.

2. Pay extra-close attention to the things that tickle — or offend — your senses.

Your reaction just might lead to a great business idea, as it did for Eisenberg after one of her kids came home and handed her an ugly temporary tattoo, begging her to put it on. Check out Tattly, the business that sprang from this moment.

And check out the complimentary “Party Watch” Tattly tattoo that I got at Hopscotch (this is a screenshot from the website, as my tattoo is long-gone, of course):

 

And if you peer closely enough at this photo, you can also read her great list of advice to her younger self (though you had to be there and hear all of her context and great storytelling to fully appreciate the list).

 

3. Design principles are being applied to many things, including crucial social issues.

One thought-provoking Hopscotch design panel included locals Erin White of the Community Food Lab and Shana Overdorf, Executive Director of the Raleigh-Wake Partnership to End Homelessness, and Terry Irwin, head of the School of Design at Carnegie Mellon University, whose research focuses on design for society and the environment, 

In retrospect, applying design thinking to these complex problems seems like a no-brainer, but seeing the time devoted to this topic during the festival was a welcome surprise for this longtime nonprofit writer.

4. If you need to shake things up, committing to a daily creative challenge may just do the trick.

Artist and illustrator Daniel Horowitz shared examples of the striking work that came out of the year-long artistic experiment he wrote about in this designboom post in 2012:

“working primarily as a digital artist over the last decade, I considered what might happen if I were to pull out a blank page and begin to draw. not on commission and with no particular purpose in mind. The self-imposed minimum, one drawing a day, was to serve as an exercise to pull myself away from the computer and to begin to explore analog creativity.”

At the Hopscotch session, he spoke to the thing that many of us struggle with and how the project freed him:

“Perfection was ... paralyzing me. It was thrilling to not be too concerned about the end result.”

I was so taken by the session and the work he was sharing that it was difficult for me to leave early to get to my next workshop. (This was a common problem for me; there were often sessions going on at the same time that sounded equally interesting.)

The Horowitz talk was not the first time this year that I had thought about adopting a daily creative discipline. Of all of the people who write about business and avocations and work, Seth Godin is probably at the top of my list. He gave himself the challenge years ago of writing a blog post every day, and something about that discipline has clearly worked for him.

His posts are almost always short and to the point, and they come with no photos or embellishments — just a few paragraphs that always seem to have just what I needed that day, whether it’s kind encouragement or a crack of the whip to get me out of a (usually self-induced) slump.

I have yet to commit to a daily creative habit, but revisiting the Daniel Horowitz presentation all these weeks later is inspiring me. It’s time to start writing something every single day that I can post without the interference of my perfectionistic inner editor.

5. Hopscotch turned out to deliver exactly what I had in mind when I signed up: A chance to meet new and interesting people.

It just didn’t happen exactly the way I’d expected that it would.

Mayor McFarlane helping to kick off the conference

Mayor McFarlane helping to kick off the conference

Chance meeting #1:

During the keynote by author and researcher Dan Heath, we were asked to find another person nearby to talk with about two questions Heath posed to us. Raleigh Mayor Nancy McFarlane was just down the row from me, so we did the exercise together. I enjoyed hearing her answers, especially the one about who we would have dinner with if we could choose anyone (we decided that it could be anyone, dead or alive).

I will not give away her answers, as I’m sure she gets weary of having her every remark reported, but Mayor, if you see this, I would love to know the name of that historical figure you find fascinating so I can do a little research on him myself.

Chance meeting #2:

On the first day of the conference, I was wandering around downtown in search of a place to eat lunch; the first several I tried weren’t open. Standing on a street corner waiting for the light to change, I noticed that the woman next to me was wearing a Hopscotch Design Fest lanyard, and I asked if she was enjoying the conference. She was on a quest for a lunch spot, too, and we decided to eat together. I won’t violate her privacy either, but the short version is that she has been involved for years in important creative work that touches on both history and social issues in North Carolina. We had so many interests in common that our street corner meeting seemed like serendipity of the highest order. We have kept in touch, and I just did an editing project for her.

6. Don’t forget the power of the moments in your life.

Dan Heath asked us to keep the details of his keynote to ourselves because he and his brother, Chip, are coming out with a book soon that will feature new research related to the keynote topic. So to give context without giving away any details, I’ll just share a line from the Hopscotch Design Fest description of his presentation:

“What if we could reverse-engineer the most meaningful, memorable experiences of our lives — and then use what we learned to create more of them?”

To illustrate this thesis, Heath brought everyone in the room together to create an encouraging, funny moment for the mother of an audience member.

Heath’s theme was familiar territory for me in a bittersweet way.

My sister died in May, less than a year after getting a Stage 4 cancer diagnosis, and as her only close family member in Raleigh, I became her “person” and the organizer of the truly amazing friends I call the Village People.

I knew she did not have a lot of time, and much of my thinking over that almost-year had to do with how we could create uplifting moments for her in the midst of chemo and hospital stays and being stuck at home.

Early on, when she was still doing well, a moment was as simple as suggesting that my sister, my teenage daughter and I stop at the nearby party store when we were out having lunch on the Fourth of July. We tried on every crazy July 4th hat they had, and walked out with two festive tiaras, a red cowgirl hat and a flag bandanna.

As time went by, my family and my sister's friends realized that we didn’t have time to simply wait and see what memorable things happened on their own. We had to make things happen, and yet be careful to ensure that nothing we did seemed too orchestrated or forced.

My sister never stopped hoping she would outrun the cancer, even when it was obvious to everyone around her that she could not, and it would have been a slap in the face of her strength and unwavering hope if we seemed to be creating a series of “last” experiences. There is a fine line between seizing the day and over-reaching.

One of the best moments of her last year involved my sister’s longtime friend hauling her, a wheelchair and an oxygen tank across the Triangle to a performance of the Dance Theater of Harlem two weeks after my sister left the hospital in an incredibly weakened state. Her friend made a flyer that she stuck to the wall beside my dancer/choreographer sister’s bed the day she came home, directing her to rest up because they would be attending. My sister was feeling so rough at the time that I couldn’t wrap my head around how this scheme was ever going to work, but it did: They not only made it to the performance, but were able to stay until the end. My sister was wiped out afterward, but loved it. It's amazing what combined will, strength and stubbornness can do. 

And a month or so before she died, I rounded up a handful of gardening friends for a party of sorts. They showed up at my sister’s house on a Sunday morning and spent several hours doing the weeding, planting, mulching and general beautifying that my sister, a passionate gardener, could not do in her yard. What she was able to do that day was sit on the front porch and talk shop about plants with fellow gardeners who shared her love of digging and exploring and transforming.

Heath's keynote was a good reminder that we need to make the important moments happen for ourselves now, and not wait until we are up against illness and a timeline.

I’m betting that the Heaths’ new book will have a lot to say about how to do that.

7. If you can hang on, failure often will take you to a happier or wiser or more fitting place. Or a new beginning.

 

Debbie Millman, Chief of Marketing of Sterling Brands and host of the Design Matters podcast, closed out the festival by sharing what turned out to be an epic story of overcoming tough times in her professional life.

I believe that misery truly does love company, and not because we all delight in seeing others suffer; I think that seeing other people slog through hard times is sometimes the only thing that keeps us going. It’s important to be reminded that we are not the only ones.

Millman has been through some tough (and public) professional lows, and she didn’t sugarcoat them; I winced a few times as she told her story.

I’ve heard people talk about failure before and not been nearly as affected as I was by Millman’s warm and funny but no-holds-barred talk about how tough times can wind around to happy endings.

 

Her story resonated deeply with me, and still does all these weeks later as I think about my professional trajectory.

Circumstances fell into place while my sister was sick that allowed me to change my work situation (a combination of stable freelance work and a part-time corporate writing job) to concentrate solely on my freelance business; this gave me the flexibility I needed to be able to help my sister and also keep my teenager’s life as close to normal as possible.

After my sister died, the phrase “life is short” took on new intensity for me, and I thought a lot about the time we spend working. I’ve found over the years that full-time writing jobs often end up involving very little writing and creative work and a whole lot of what boils down to paper-pushing, cat-herding and project management. (To say those are not my primary skills/interests is an understatement.) 

So I made a leap of faith and decided to continue working entirely for myself, at least for the time being. I’m writing web content and blogs for my regular small business clients (and always searching for more, of course); I’m doing one-off writing and editing projects; and I’m also devoting time to personal writing projects that may or may not ever pay but are satisfying in many other ways.

Some days feel suspenseful at best and terrifying at worst, but there is also a bit of a thrill in trying to honor the sometimes hard-won knowledge that life is short and should be spent, as much as is humanly possible, doing work that you love.

Thanks for a memorable experience, New Kind and Hopscotch Design Festival planners; I'm glad I joined you.

Postscript: The dates for the 2017 Hopscotch Design Festival have just been announced — September 7 and 8. You can keep track of plans at hopscotchdesignfest.com.

Carla Atkinson has worked in the nonprofit and for-profit worlds as a reporter, magazine editor/writer, marketing copywriter and business communicator, and now writes for a variety of clients at ATKINSONWORDS. Past work includes serving as editor of the New Line Cinema-sponsored magazine about the making of The Lord of the Rings film trilogy; working as a senior editor at Transition, a Prague-based magazine about political, economic and cultural changes in post-Soviet bloc countries in the mid-90s; helping to start CollegeBound, a nonprofit mentoring and scholarship program for kids in Washington, DC; and writing for SAS, GlaxoSmithKline and Duke Cancer Center, among many other companies/organizations.

‘At its worst, it feels like alligator wrestling…’

The sensation of writing a book is the sensation of spinning, blinded by love and daring. It is the sensation of a stunt pilot’s turning barrel rolls, or an inchworm’s blind rearing from a stem in search of a route. At its worst, it feels like alligator wrestling, at the level of the sentence.

~ writer Annie Dillard

 

Photo credit: The Miriam and Ira D. Wallach Division of Art, Prints and Photographs: Photography Collection, The New York Public Library. "Studio photograph of an alligator on table." The New York Public Library Digital Collections. http://digitalcollections.nypl.org/items/510d47e0-580c-a3d9-e040-e00a18064a99